friends only from now on.

non lj friends should get an account so that i can add back.


edit: most entries would be under friends only. there would be occasions whereby i will post public entries. i cannot add everyone that comments here, i will add eventually after knowing you more.do come by to comment and chat. It is NOTHING personal against you, just that it would beat the point of locking up this journal.

2010 is coming to an end and it's reflection time again. I had 45 minutes to myself in the morning just staring into the ceiling and I realised how selfish, self-centered,immature , jealous and mean(EXTREMELY) I was in the past ( before 2010).

2010 brought me to a whole new level. I learnt about sacrifices, on being a wife, a mother, a seller, a granddaughter, a niece and a friend. And I'm proud to say I've played each role fairly well this year.

Before 2010, I thought that the whole world revolved around me, I was rude, selfish and very very very EVIL whenever I couldn't get what I wanted. I was scheming, cunning and such a bad person I can't believe I still have friends who stick by me today. I said the worst things to people I hated and shamed them in unimaginable ways. In summary, I fail to qualify for moral excellence; not that it exists in today's world.

Towards the starting of 2010, I realised I've lost sight of what fundamentally made me happy, because even though it made me less angry after I lash out a series of mean phrases, I starting losing people who were once close to me. Thus, I started to let the wrong-doings of people pass me by. I forgave people who sinned against me, I started giving in and not only taking in, I chose my words properly and took time to think before I write and speak. Towards the middle of the year, I could see my efforts paying off, my relationships with people improved by leaps and bounds, I started to understand the meaning of true friendships, my customers in lyla-rose started coming back,and my marriage was a happier one.


In life, i started to learn that giving in didn't mean that you were a weaker person, it just made you a more magnanimous one. Losing out wasn't such a big deal sometimes, just not everytime (geez). 2011 would definitely be a better year, because I'm such an optimist and positively happy person today compared to the past.

Hi girls, because REDUCTIL has been recalled in the US, the pharmacies has ceased the sale of it as well. I have refunded all readers who had asked for help in getting hold of it. Likewise, I have since stopped using Reductil and changed to another medication. So far so good, I've already lost 1kg?! It's only been slightly more then a week! I will STOP using this medication after I've reached my goal.

You girls whom have commented about REDUCTIL but I did not reply, it's due to the recall . I'm sorry but I will not want to put my readers at risk of any potential risks caused by REDUCTIL.

The whole week has been crazily busy and slumberless. I can't wait for Singapore and Taiwan in another few days' time. See you peeeeepollleee !!!

Hello everybody! It's been weeks since I last updated this picture deprived space ( I still blame it on the bulky DSLR ). But i'll try to upload pictures of the romantic Mataking Island when I get hold of them.

Firstly, I would like to share my excitement of meeting a Barracuda just 6M down Mataking's dive reef, imagine the variety of fishes I'll get to see if I dive Sipadan ! My ears were deaf for 2 days after the dive and I was talking like an uncouth LOUD china woman because of the ear block , the breathing mouthpiece gave me ulcers that hurt for days but it's all worth it and I can't wait to dive again, it's sooooooooo addictive!

2 more weeks to Singapore again and then it's Taiwan for J and I. Food, glorious food, here I come. I can't seem to control my appetite these days, I've been eating like a starved cow so I resorted to REDUCTIL recently. It's supposed to help me control my appetite. It's DAY 2 now and I must say I've lost all appetite for food(very good). Before you judge me, please understand that it's very important that I do not put on anymore weight because I already look disgustingly FAT on LYLA-ROSE.COM. Also, part of the reason for my constant munching is PSYCHOLOGICAL. I snack everytime I'm stressed, it's becoming an eating disorder.

Oh if you're wondering how I got hold of Reductil (controlled drug in Singapore).........believe it or not, it's available OTC(over the counter) here in Malaysia. I love the pharmacies here, they supply so many drugs that can only be bought if you see a doctor and get a prescription in Singapore. I know many of you people are gonna judge me and tell me about the dangers of weight-control tablets but I don't really care.

These drugs are made for people who are lazy to exercise and eat well. Don't tell me about wise dieting and regular exercise being the key for weight-management, it's all bullshit. I have a friends who eat proper meals and jogs daily but are still FAT. Some of us just needs that extra help. Anyway, most of you who judges me and are criticizing me right now are probably wondering how to get hold of these drugs yourself. =/   ( ask me )


All those perfectly pretty girls you stare down the streets probably had some help with cosmetic procedures and weight control pills. Part of you thinks of those girls as artificial, but deep down , you want to be like them too.Most humans are hypocrites by nature. Sad, but true.

Hi all, today marks the first day I cooked a decent meal for J after over a year of marriage ( shame on me and my maggi + microwave; pasta is also not counted as a proper meal since it's butt easy ). 

The menu for today is Hokkien Rice, also known as "giam beng". There are many versions of this dish because you can use different types of vegetables. I've tried Jim's granny's mustard green aka 瓜菜 version and I love the bitter aftertaste of it. Well, due to my incapability to wake up early enough to go to the market for mustard greens, we'll have to settle for long beans and cabbage from the ever convenient supermarket!



I don't usually take pork, I'm almost halal but this is essential for this dish.



You add in the dried shrimps, scallops, followed by the cabbage and long beans.


After this is done, you'll have to add in the pre-soaked rice and continue stir-frying and mixing everything together. Lastly, transfer everything into the rice-cooker and add in water . Ratio 1:1.5







Well, geez, I think I added too much water but it's still yummy!

Spent the whole Sunday afternoon taking pictures for the upcoming collection for Lyla-Rose. Due to time constraints, I'm back to being the temporary model.





Love the military hat! Gonna sell it on Lyla-Rose. Love hats.... Lyla-Rose is like the 鳳飛飛 of blogshops because we keep selling hats and head accessories. 





And I really like this cute romper skorts. It's so-called skorts because the sHorts bottom looks like a sKirt.

HAHA. Ok, it's 1.20 am now so I better get to sleep and rush editting so we can launch earlier. Goodnight y'all.